selfish

this is very selfish in a way but it's the truth.....

i want to have elizabeth because i wont have the chance to have her ever again. if we're apart and we have children with others thats not elizabeth the baby we have dreamed about for so long. i wouldn't want any other man to be my little girls daddy. you're absolutly cut out for the job. you'de do the best in the world and we both have the same feelings on how to raise her. thats so important. you said and promised just a few weeks ago when the thought of not keeping her was here that we would adopt and what your new girlfriend is going to be happy that you're adopting a baby with me when timing would be better? but you swore so i believed it. but i know that won;t happen that way. i want this baby. i've become attached. i've fallen in love. and i'm not shouting it out yet but i'm so excited.

his points are valid and i understand them. but i can't take back what i feel for elizabeth.